So as I sit here at work, I tend to think a lot. Maybe a lot is an understatement. I tend to think enough for the whole world. But the difference with today is that, I have decided to just listen to worship music while at work. Pandora is being awesome right now. I have my Kim Walker-Smith station on, and it's absolutely incredible right now.
Hold My Heart by Tenth Avenue North just finished playing. And now Hosanna by Hillsong is playing.
Hold My Heart is very close to my heart, it's how I got through the break up of my first relationship, by giving my hurt and pain solely to God. And in Hosanna, it says "Break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I am for your kingdom's cause." And throughout the past four weeks God has been breaking my heart.
As most of you know, my most recent relationship came to an end four weeks ago today. And surprisingly, I am doing better than I expected. At first I wasn't, but I wasn't listening. I was being ignorant, human nature I guess. Hah. But anyways.
I just want God to break me. And use me, for whatever it is He wants. I was put here for a purpose, and I want to be a world changer. I want to share God's love with people who don't know it. All God wants is for us to want Him, the way he wants us.
The way God loves us is absolutely overwhelming. Why would I not want to share the kind of love people need in the world. <3
Psalm 73:28.<3
I will never be the same.
Hosannah is such a great song, I am sure God will do what is needed in your heart. When we hunger and thirst for his righteousness, he always satisfy us:)
ReplyDeleteYOUTUBE THIS RIGHT NOW~ Song[ Amazed by Building 429] AND google the lyrics so u can grasp the full effect. Sister, we need to talk! The Lord has been doing just that in my life also, and yesterday he again brought me to my knees, in total surrender and it keeps getting harder, but that's the Lord disciplining me and refining me and WE BOTH will be put through fire, (pain) to come out as PURE GOLD sister <3 i love you thanks for sharing, its a constant reminder to me that i'm not alone. The Lord sometimes uses relationships as a developmental process for us and i have to remember that and know that the LORD has our best interest in mind, jeremiah 29:11 a plan to prosper us not harm us to give us a hope and a future!
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